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Monday, July 28, 2008,7:49 PM
Question of the day: Which is more hurting? To be hurt by the person that you love? Or to hurt the person that you love?
Sunday, July 27, 2008,7:15 PM
Feeling down. Overwhelmed with all the things that have happened quickly and suddenly in a span of just three weeks. Thoughts and emotions are just brewing inside. I dunno how to let them out. I dunno what to say because I cannot seem to find the right words.
I've no idea how to pick myself up. Everything seems fine...however... search deeper...that's where the torture and hurt is. Bleeding.
God has sent the three angels to me each and every time something horrible happens. I am really thankful for that. Today's sunday, and I'm pondering about what has taken place lately. Cannot help but feel the ache inside. How can some people use their words so loosely to the extent that they do not mean them afterall? Do they know they are hurting others badly? Like that my babe said... BAD PLAYER... how true...how true...
Thursday, July 17, 2008,8:46 PM
What is love?
On this day one month ago, something happened. As I look back, it's a memory created, something which had brought joy to my life. What really, is love? Is it a warm fuzzy feeling one gets? Is it commitment to each other in whatever circumstance? Is it possible to wait for the one you love all your life? Even if it means wasting ur chances of giving a go at another potentially better r/s?
A msg from him has left me in a dilemma --- "Today, my heart belongs to someone. It will remain that way unless she returns it back to me. The key to my heart is held by that special someone and I will never give the key to someone else".
What do I do?
He goes on..."I am glad that I have the opportunity to love you. Even if the road ahead may not seem smooth, I will still be glad cos i know you will be by my side passing through the obstacles of life... If you ask me, will I love you for the rest of my life? My answer will be no. I will love you for the rest of YOUR life."
Never have I heard such heartfelt words, coming from a sincere genuine heart. Never have i met someone so sacrificial, with a big heart and gives his best to the one he loves. Someone who promises to go through thick n thin with you. Oh gosh...
Saturday, July 12, 2008,12:05 AM
I miss the hearty talks with my precious babe. Totally appreciate the advice she has given to me as i share my innermost thoughts with her. She is like a mirror in my life, someone who listens, understands and gives her most frank advice. Each time i speak to her, it's as if she is able to speak what my heart is screaming out for. One takeaway, I should learn to stop pleasing the people around me, and start to care about myself, my wants and what I truly live for. How do I go about doing that? I have no idea, where to start? I know what I want, but I've no idea how to get there. She offered me four simple words, simple as they are, but so powerful n so much truth in them --- "Listen to your HEART".
Each day when I wake up, I thank God for the few precious friends he has given me, for they have been perpectually around me, whether silently, physically or simply emotionally. I feel blessed with the love they have given, the support and care they have shown in all that I've been through. I know that no matter what happens, they will alwayz be around to be my pillar of strength. That thought alone is enough to keep me going, keep me motivated, keep me searching and working towards goal, and discover the true desire of my heart.
For now, I'm happy with what I have, and the precious time I spend with my loved ones. These are the moments really worth living for, moments that money can't buy, moments which should be treasured n carved in our hearts.