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Friday, May 23, 2008,2:39 PM
Mask
I cannot help but feel that I'm wearing a mask every day. Had a chat with a close friend in school today and he told me that if i had not shared my worries, anxieties and troubles with him, he wouldn't have known what i'm facing given the front that put up in school. The usual smiley me. Based on what he said, I've come to conclude that people do LITERALLY take us at face value. If we look happy, then we are deemed to be happy. I try to look happy because i would like to try my best to be as professional as i can. But this often gets misinterpreted that all is well, VERY WELL. This assumption can be so totally wrong.
I'm breaking down inside. From what's happening @ home. No one knows, no one understands. Only told bro when is saw her the other day for a haircut. She somehow was more able to see things from a more objective point of view. Sigh.
My husband feels that school is taking way too many long weekends away from me, the optional activities i mean. But i'm unable to express this concern to those in school. No one understands. People who have perfect families, perfect husbands, perfect spouses prob won't even understand what I'm trying to articulate.
Anyway, enough being said. For now, I only choose to seek solace in God, for he is but the only one who truly listens, truly understands, and is truly THERE...
A simple girl who seeks to seize and treasure each precious moment in life. She craves spending time with those she love, esp the friends and loved ones around her. Life doesn't go on forever, so each moment is precious to her. Polka dots, ribbons, boots, blings, beautiful bags, cupcakes and giraffes tickle her pink!
