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Sunday, October 28, 2007,11:43 PM
The time is near
In times of quietness, when i sit to reflect on my week, my work, my life, one thing never fails to come to my mind - the fact that the year is going to end soon, and someone who has played an important role in my life, is going to leave soon. Who will fill the gap? No one perhaps. Who can i tell my insecurities to? No one, because no one will probably understand. Ppl would jus shrug it off as a f***king trivial matter. But to me, it means so much. It means losing a friend i can talk to, it means losing someone whom i know is there quietly even though we may not talk. It means losing a pillar of strength. It means losing a companion I've had for so many years. It simply means a lot. Not talking about it does not mean i'm the least bit unaffected. Not talking about it simply means I don't know where to start, and I don't know how to handle the impending loss and pain.
I cannot say things to persuade her to stay, knowing that the job sucks at times. I cannot persuade her to stay simply because i know that she should pursue her own happiness. I simply cannot open my mouth to say anything regarding that, for fear that my tears will roll. I guess it's really a struggle within myself i have to handle and resolve. I am beginning to feel that no one understands. And when ppl say they do, I suspect they don't.
A simple girl who seeks to seize and treasure each precious moment in life. She craves spending time with those she love, esp the friends and loved ones around her. Life doesn't go on forever, so each moment is precious to her. Polka dots, ribbons, boots, blings, beautiful bags, cupcakes and giraffes tickle her pink!
