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Saturday, August 11, 2007,12:16 PM
Decoding my thoughts...
How true the portion on :
Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily
Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship
Indeed, if commitment is the only key to my marriage, then someday, my heart might grow cold. Or is it already now? Somehow, there seems to be a gap in my thoughts that needs to be addressed. I cannot pin point what it is. Maybe the gap between my thoughts is where my heart, soul and mind meet, and that is where I truly know what I want. I read in a book, that "Somewhere in your heart, you already know what you would love to do with your life". I suspect I already do, but lack the great courage to take the necessary steps and action. I am afraid of the insecurities, the uncertainty that will come my way. I am committed to him because of security n a great urge to conform to the norms that have been set long ago.
I know deep inside that through my actions, I've already traded my dreams, and perhaps even the ideal happiness I seek for security. Is it even secure in the first place?
Adeline told me last night from a close friend's point of view that I shouldn't even be getting married. THE DAY's coming..I know i shouldn't even be looking back. I am certainly scared. What can I do? I will tread on, taking things as they come, taking heart that the ppl close to me will always support what I do.
A simple girl who seeks to seize and treasure each precious moment in life. She craves spending time with those she love, esp the friends and loved ones around her. Life doesn't go on forever, so each moment is precious to her. Polka dots, ribbons, boots, blings, beautiful bags, cupcakes and giraffes tickle her pink!
