Met up today with Ray's brother, Ah Boon, his gf Qiuling and their bunch of singers for our wedding. Interesting group of people. Really didn't look forward to the meeting at all initially, as I always felt skeptical about their offer to help. Felt weird that why would people we wouldn't even know offer to help to sing at our solemnisation?
I soon saw the light...I must say that God provides for ALL our needs. Not some...but ALL. We didn't have singers...MC...guitarist...to begin with. Approached some people, but got unconfirmed answers. To begin with,it's just so not me to open my mouth to ASK... so I juz left the matter as it is. I told Ray that if we dun have a team...too bad, then dun sing. So we committed everything to God...
Indeed, God did see to our needs and requests. Ah Boon's church friends were able to help. Details of how they learned about our wedding, i'm not too sure. I'm juz thankful that there are people whom were didn't even know...people whom we had never ever seen...people whose paths we've never crossed, offered their help. It is really God at work.
So....we met up with them today. A bunch of five of them...all in their 20 somethings... they seemed more excited in our wedding than Ray and I. Thankfully, the two hours we spent with them made us see lots of gaps in the logistics for our wedding. They also brought up quite a number of good suggestions. We're also thankful that they would be able to help us in quite a few ways on our wedding. Finally, we're seeing some kinda PROGRESS in our planning, after a long standstill...
Boon and Qiuling...my sis-in-law to be, will be of great great help to us, and we are more than thankful to God for that provision.
A friend once told me to seek God when no one seems to help during our times of need. She felt this challenge during her planning of her wedding last year. At the end of it all, she shared with me that God provided MORE than enough help for her. Isn't that very encouraging? Thank you God for always being by our side, listening to our petitions and requests.
Thank you God for making all things beautiful, in your time.
Sunday, August 19, 2007,10:32 PM
Thankful
To begin with, I need to admit that I'm a great procrastinator. Leaving things to the last minute, and only willing to begin on tasks which are super urgent or are due the following day. Had an entire HEAP, and I mean heap (6 thick piles to be exact)of work to complete. Knowing well I couldn't complete them in one day, I still left them to the very last minute, NEVERTHELSSS. Unapologetic. Still went out for lunch...shopping...afternoon nap (coz the weather was so right for a nap) who cares *rolls eyeball*
Only when I woke up did reality set in and work began. I roped in my uncle, mother and husband-to-be (I would ask Grandma too, if she was literate) to help tie up the loose ends of my unfinished business. They were like a production line, it's simply amusing. They helped to offload my work in half the time, I think. That, I'm very thankful to them for being to understanding towards my nonchalent attitude. THey knew VERY WELL that it was my fault that I had left everything to the last minute and simply couldn't care less! In their ever supportive fashion, they simply took instructions, n did what they were told to do. Simply amazing, simply remarkable. I love them all.
Thursday, August 16, 2007,8:38 PM
What Your Hands Say About You
You are artistic, intuitive, and inspired. You have good people skills.
Idealistic and dreamy, you tend toward the impractical. You have a knack for getting yourself in sticky situations.
Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.
Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.
Your power colors: blue and aqua Your energy: deep Your season: winter Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion.You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul.A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem.You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.
Been wanting to pen my thoughts down since Tuesday,but didn't have time. Celebrated Sherlin's bday on Tuesday @ NYDC. It feels really good to be able to catch up with good friends, talk about poly days n laugh at all the crap. It's juz so hilarious to think back about those days of learning to chng, studying at airport (for dunno wat reason...did what we study get in anyway? haha),wearing high socks (mistake!!!), recalling the weird n funny ppl we met along the way...haha it's so damn funny. Had fun, laughed lots, n appreciated the company of Sher, n Ms 46% 54%! Being with them really allowed me to be MYSELF for once...my REAL TRUE CRAPPY MAD self, knowing that no one will judge. Can chng all i wan, say anything I wan, do anything I wan...so totally different from workplace... Mmmuacks!
Saturday, August 11, 2007,12:16 PM
Decoding my thoughts...
How true the portion on :
Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily
Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship
Indeed, if commitment is the only key to my marriage, then someday, my heart might grow cold. Or is it already now? Somehow, there seems to be a gap in my thoughts that needs to be addressed. I cannot pin point what it is. Maybe the gap between my thoughts is where my heart, soul and mind meet, and that is where I truly know what I want. I read in a book, that "Somewhere in your heart, you already know what you would love to do with your life". I suspect I already do, but lack the great courage to take the necessary steps and action. I am afraid of the insecurities, the uncertainty that will come my way. I am committed to him because of security n a great urge to conform to the norms that have been set long ago.
I know deep inside that through my actions, I've already traded my dreams, and perhaps even the ideal happiness I seek for security. Is it even secure in the first place?
Adeline told me last night from a close friend's point of view that I shouldn't even be getting married. THE DAY's coming..I know i shouldn't even be looking back. I am certainly scared. What can I do? I will tread on, taking things as they come, taking heart that the ppl close to me will always support what I do.
,12:07 PM
Your Love is Based on Commitment
You believe that love is something that develops and grows. You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love. For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding. You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run.
Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily
Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship
No doubt that you've warmed up to the idea of marriage and life long love You just aren't quite ready to follow up with your desires, yet. You may be a bit young, or a bit commitment phobic... give it time. Concentrate on guys who you can imagine being with next year. Forever can wait.
Like it or not, your friends are going to hear the truth from you. You know that the truth hurts, but living a life of lies is much worse.
So while you're definitely kind and supportive, you don't pull any punches with your friends. Everyone knows where they stand with you. And what you like and dislike about them.
While some may be initially turned off by your honesty, your friends have come to consider it a virtue. After all, in world of white lies and deceptive politeness, you can be counted on for honesty and integrity.
Your friends need you most when: They need good advice or an intelligent opinion
You really can't be friends with: Needy, emotional people
Your friendship quote: "True friendship can afford true knowledge. It does not depend on darkness and ignorance."
My pillar of strength My sibling My best friend My playmate My reality checkpoint My soul mate My masseur My kitchen helper My milo-maker, clothes folder, room packer etc. In short, my maria.
What more can I ask for? I think the problem lies with me...my heart...
,10:35 AM
UNAPOLOGETIC ABOUT IT! YEAH!!!
You Are 60% Spoiled
You're a little spoiled, but you're not spoiled rotten. You love to be showered with gifts and affection, but you're good at keeping your demands to a minimum!
Finally can take a break from hectic workplace. Woke up with a super bad headache, from thinking about my life last night. Woke up many times. The husband to be is having a nap beside me now, oblivious to the state of confusion I am in right now. He will not know it, and I will make sure he will NEVER know it. I'm at my crossroads again. I guess when I walk down the aisle with him, only my Partner in crime, my daily dose at work n my bro will know that I'm marrying someone I not necessarily love wholeheartedly, but am committed to. I'm not unhappy. A little regretful that things didn't turn out the way I wanted it to a year back. I guess it juz wasn't meant to be. I'm just a little sad that after saying my vows, a part of my heart will have to put behind and forger about my past. What will happen after marriage? How will he feel? What will he do? Will we still be friends? I'm not too sure. I don't even dare think about it. It will make my headache worse.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007,12:29 AM
You Are 83% Feminine, 17% Masculine
You are totally in touch with your feminine side. Chances are, you are a very typical woman. And if you're a guy, then you're just super sensitive.
You will be ready for marriage someday - just not any day soon! You still have a lot of dating to do before your find a relationship that works for you.
So happy that I finally met my bro! She now finally knows what a "MAGIC SPONGE" is! haha! Mission accomplished! Finally bought a watch way way way over my budget. But I'm happy because I know it's worth it..It's a nice watch, good quality n most of all, i think it suits him :) Happy that now I've finally bought RS something meaningful in return... Thanks to bro for bringing me to the shop to disorder..hehe I hope he likes it...
I'm looking forward to Friday... Meantime, lala land, here i come!
Monday, August 6, 2007,9:51 PM
Thoughts in solitude
The highs and lows of planning for the big day are sinking in, and in my bid to overcome the obstacles, I am making the slow but sure discovery of who my true friends are. A friend once told me through her wedding experience that it's only thru this process that we discover who our real friends are. Indeed, I'm beginning to see that. I totally CANNOT understand what is so bloody exciting about planning for marriage? Why do ppl gush about it? WHY??? What's the frenzy about dresses, hairstyles, gowns, make-up etc? I've come to a point where I feel repulsive n resentful. What's wrong with me? It's certainly not because of my husband to be. What is so exciting about getting married? Needless to say, attitude problem at work again. Who cares? Unapologetic.
I'm finding myself building a wall around myself, not wanting to communicate with the ppl I dun wan to.
The irony is - While on one hand, other see me as someone sociable or pleasant, but at the other end of the spectrum, I'm screaming "Leave me ALONE!" I'm facing a serious problem that only one or two know about. What can be done? I've simply no idea.
Right now, I'm so looking forward to seeing my bro after work tomorrow! Been a long time since I saw her! :)
,9:51 PM
Attitude
Your Attitude is Better than 30% of the Population
You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good.
How big is your bed? Super single What are you listening to right now? sound of my air con, Li Sheng Jie's song on You Tube What was the last thing you ate? Waffle Crisp! Last person you hugged? My neighbour's kid... How is the weather right now? Not sure, it sure is freezing in here Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Husband to be What is the first thing u notice in the opposite sex? Superficial as it may sound, definitely the looks Favorite type of Food? Japanese Do you want children? Guess so...1? Do you drink? Sometimes, depending on the company Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night? Never Hair color? Dark drown Eye colour? Black Do you wear contacts/glasses? Yes, but no most of the time Ideal holiday? Maldives Favorite Season? Summer! Have you ever cried over a girl/boy? Countless, on both! Last Movie you Watched? Gosh..I can't remember What books are you reading? Signposts of Life Piercings? 5 Favorite Movie? Facing Windows Favorite college football Team? huh? Don't hv la... What were you doing before filling this out? Chatting on MSN Any pets? nope Dogs or cats? Certainly dogs Favorite Flower? Sunflower Have you ever loved someone? Of coz Who would you like to see right now? RS Have you ever fired a gun? oh yeah, in Phuket Do you like to travel by plane? As compared to boats...yes! Right-handed or Left-handed? Left If you could go to any place right now where would you go? San Francisco Are you missing someone? Yup Do you have a tattoo? Nope Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings? Of coz not, beauty sleep is so precious Are you hiding something from someone? Yes. Definitely. ARE YOU 18? Way over that! damnz WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE? Little Miss Naughty DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT? It's never enough... FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING? Wah lauz..have to wake up liao???!!! Damn WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE? Water, box of tissue paper, clock GRILLED OR FRIED? Grilled WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE? My bloody attitude problem, unapologetic n wilful character ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? dun think so FAVORITE HANGOUT? home! 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT? CHNG. Handphone. Blusher. FAVORITE SONG? So many... WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? For now, marriage ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER? More of a taker i think WHAT IS YOUR DADS MIDDLE NAME? Toh WHATS YOUR MOTHERS MIDDLE NAME? Gek STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD TAKE ONE THING? Handphone, with auto roam activated FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL? dunno leh... WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER? M1 FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE? Family members Whats your favorite color? White WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU? Cell phone, credit cards, money WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID? A naval diver WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 11:11 pm.? Get offended THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEEt? Princess Pink! WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEFORE YOU GO TO BED? The TWO special ppl in my life right now.
,11:19 PM
Ahemz...
You Are Bisexual
Girls or guys? You'll take either. Or both. You can't make up your mind. And why should you?
Antisocial? That may be a bit of an understatement.You think rules are meant to be broken - and with gusto!Having no fear, you don't even think about consequences.But people love you anyway... you've got a boatload of charm.
New blog. New skin. New inspiration. Weekend's over soon. Spent weekend with him, but mind (and perhaps even my heart) was somewhere far far away. I feel myself running away from reality. Wedding's almost 4 months down the road, but it seems like I've accumulated 400 more reasons to confuse myself even more.
Someone special admitted to me that he is not seeing anyone at the moment because he's afraid to face reality. I think i'm feeling it too, and the more the thought sinks in, the more fearful i get. What in the world is reality in the first place? For me, i think reality is facing the cold hard truth that I am getting married one fine day. Argh...it's scary. Do i dare face it? I'm not sure. I think i'm marrying someone I am committed to, and not because of true love. Is it even fair to him or the other?
I've been seeing the other regularly every week and each time I see him, it makes it even more difficult for me to let go. I constantly ask myself- Is my journey with him going to end on my big day? I don't want to. But I've gotta be fair to him. There are times when I cant decide whether to see him or not, I want to see him because I miss him but there are times when I don't want to see him because every time I do, the fact that he doesn't see me the way that I see him hurts me even more....
I can't pretend i feel nothing, because the fact is...I do...
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A simple girl who seeks to seize and treasure each precious moment in life. She craves spending time with those she love, esp the friends and loved ones around her. Life doesn't go on forever, so each moment is precious to her.Polka dots, ribbons, boots, blings, beautiful bags, cupcakes and giraffes tickle her pink! Controlling, loud, egoistic and unreasonable people irk her big time. Loves peace, but gets really upset when people criticise haphazardly. more about her